Tuesday 28 February 2017

Mooi aan de binnenkant

Van de week stond ik voor de spiegel na het douchen en degene die terugkeek leek gewoon niet op mij. Ik was het niet, die dikke benen die beginnen te zwieberen, die dikke buik, die heupen en kont die uitsteekt. "Ik weet niet wie jij bent", zei ik "maar ik ben het niet!"

In mijn hoofd zit nog een persoon, een meisje misschien zelfs, met een normaal gewicht. Degene die ik in de spiegel zag klopte niet bij dat beeld van mijzelf. Misschien is dat het hele probleem wel; zolang ik denk dat ik 'normaal' ben qua gewicht, val ik ook niet af of eet ik gewoon wat ik altijd al at.
Mijn zus beweert, en misschien heeft ze daar wel gelijk in, dat ik mijn emoties vasthoudt en omdat ik dat doe gaat dat ergens anders in mijn lijf zitten.
Weer een ander zegt dat het stress is, of wat te denken van teveel zitten! Ik heb dan wel een bewegend beroep maar zodra ik thuis kom ga ik zitten en denk ik; "hè hè, nu even niks" en lopen ho maar!



Ik ben nu 10 jaar in de overgang en heb gemerkt dat ik er niet slanker op word. Ik eet matig, ik drink alleen maar water, of koffie of thee. Ik snoep amper. Ik zal best wel iets verkeerd doen maar wát dan? Word ik gelukkig van mezelf op een dieet zetten? Word ik gelukkig van een negatief zelfbeeld?
Word ik gelukkig als mensen mij wijzen op mijn lijf wat ik echt zelf wel weet, geloof me.
Mijn huisarts zei me ooit; "dat je dik bent weten we nu wel, maar je moet fit zijn" En daar moet ik nu dus aan gaan werken, aan fit worden. Niet meer buiten adem raken bij een klein stukje fietsen, of een trap op en af lopen. Ik vind mezelf misschien niet mooi maar ook aan dat zelfbeeld kun je werken. Ik ben wel mooi van binnen en daar gaat het toch om!
Aan de buitenkant wordt gewerkt. It's a work in progress.
*trekt wandelschoenen aan en gaat een eindje lopen*

© KH

Sunday 26 February 2017

Music on Sunday; Some Alternative rock/Indie favourites

My two sons (22 & 20 ) are always busy with music. The oldest is playing guitar himself and the youngest would love to play the drums (he had a few lessons and was very good at it) but mostly keeps it to listening to music. I've been listening to music as long as I can remember. When I was a kid we always had a radio on in the house. These days not as much, perhaps because I just can't stand todays poppy music with Justin Timberlake as the exception. I'm more of an alternative/Indie kind of type. Youngest son listens to rock and metal or sometimes even folkrock (like me) and even sometimes Dean Martin and others like that and oldest plays a lot of rock too. Poppy tunes is not for us. (which is why I sometimes am stunned why my oldest is going to these huge festivals or parties where there's that techno going on)

Anyway my point is; my kids sometimes (especially the youngest) like to test me on my musical knowledge. 'Mum, you probably don't know this band but...' or 'Mum, do you know who this is?' and to their surprise I most times do know.

Even thought they don't read my blog I would like to post some songs today that I like from bands/artists I like which they didn't know I would like. Not your average mum, kiddo! ;-)

I can't very well put all my favourites here but I still hope you enjoy it!

This episode of Stargate Atlantis made me fall in love with this song;



To be fair; after their beautiful cover 'Sound of Silence' my youngest told me to listen to other stuff of them





Of course in the 80s we used to listen to the Paul Young cover of this song (an original is often better as a copy)



Boy, I've listened to so many Cure songs in the 80s... danced to them, sang with them...



Never thought I like Radiohead much until I heard this song



I must have played Owner of a Lonely heart over and over back then and only later discovered the other gorgeous songs;



I love this song;




© KH

Sunday 19 February 2017

Music on Sunday; februari 1997

Gisteren werd mijn jongste zoon alweer 20. Wat mij vandaag dus deed denken aan; wat voor muziek luisterden we 20 jaar geleden? Dus ik heb even de hitlijst erbij opgezocht en gekeken wat er die week zoal aan muziek gedraaid werd; een kleine greep;  (zonder de keur aan gabber liedjes dan)
Geen wonder dat ik mijn eigen muziek luisterde (en nog!)













© KH

Sunday 12 February 2017

Music on Sunday; songs longer than ten minutes

It's  not done really; to bring out a song that is longer than the 'normal' standard 3 minute something time, long enough for your dj to chat again. Is it that people are getting bored otherwise or that they just love to hear themselves talk? I for one am done with the average 'normal' radio program with the loudmouth dj's and the poppy songs. Never liked those anyway, the songs, not the dj's however there is a difference in those too but that's for another time. If a song is good with a great buildup, why not make it long? So here are some songs for you longer than the normal 3 minute and something time, longer than 10 minutes even. Enjoy;



















© KH

Sunday 5 February 2017

Music on Sunday; Songs Trump will hate

It's been only 2 weeks now since Trump got president of the USA and already he has seen fit to break the entire democracy down.
I know I told myself I wouldn't get too much involved for my own peace of mind but who can't get too much involved? He's a demagogue, a tirant who, when not getting his way, is throwing a temper tantrum on Twitter like a 5 year old.
So for this week's Music on Sunday some songs which you know Trump would hate. Not that he would listen them, or even read a blog (the man doesn't read... a man who doesn't read is president of a bit nation! Seriously!)
So for our enjoyment only;

Eminem has already made a song in which he's calling Trump a bitch but that song isn't on YouTube so here are some others he might dislike;









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© KH

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Wednesday 1 February 2017

Wednesday Wisdom



The last weeks I have been reading up on the news on social media, on news feeds, watching it on tv, all to follow the latest devellopments in America. Today I realised that you can get too much news or too much information on the point that it is disturbing your peace of mind. Of course I'm concerned and worried but you can't let it consume your every day life. So I am trying to stop reading up on everything, retweet every bit of information and everything coming from the USA. Which of course does not mean I am not a concerned World citizen, it only means I need to cut back a bit for my own (and others) peace of mind. 

© KH